I've set myself a huge challenge for this year. It is to stop doubting my abilities... The little voice in my head is a megaphone, years of being told by teachers that I was thick "Don't bother, you don't get it, you can't do it". Dyslexia in those days = stupid! My spelling used to be atrocious. Going to bed every night and memorising pages of my Little Oxford Dictionary helped....ask me any word now and I can pretty much tell you the meaning and my spelling isn't bad either. Maths...well...there is still the big panic....huge blank...like a computer that just freezes....then you have to reboot....mental arithmetic, it's mental!.....I've accepted the handicap...and it is a handicap in everyday life...and it makes me feel stupid. Heyho....one of life's little bumps..
I need to stop doubting myself so I can write and illustrate a children's book.....I have stories floating round my head....illustrations fluttering onto my pages....putting it all together, just out of reach. Till now... I have the story, beginning, middle and end.... I'm sure the middle and end will change but the skeleton is there. I have the characters.... I just need to put it all together....the hard graft. I know I can do it.
The icing on the cake will be getting it published....if that doesn't happen. I will of course be really disappointed BUT...I will survive and I WILL try again. At least I will be able to say "I tried." The fun is doing it and saying "I've done it." Fingers crossed.... xxx